I Hate Holidays

Social rules. Everyone has to follow them. Everyone has to be the same. To fit in.

One of those social rules is to like holidays. Everyone likes holidays, right? I don't. And nobody accepts that. Why? People hate work and hospitals, so why can't I hate holidays?

Here are my reasons for hating holidays:

• DRAMA! I hate drama and feelings. I hate the way when people have so much time that they invent problems. This is what my mom does. Right now she is crying and saying about how she will send me to orphanage. This never happens when it is a working day. Like a clock, every Saturday evening (weekend=short holiday) she cries and shouts at me for various reasons e.g. for not letting her dye my hair, for being an introvert, for liking precision and accuracy, for my favourite colour being blue, for me liking my name and asking people to pronounce it correctly, for not beating the people who bully me.

• NOTHING TO DO! Holidays are so boring and there is no routine. I like when everything is planned out, but holidays just make it really hard by givin us too much free time. I waste time like crazy. I watch movies, spend hours on YouTube and lay around all day. Laziness takes over. I hate it.

• EXPENSES! Going on holiday is so expensive and I don't like spending money. I do spend on essentials and give people presents, but I do not buy designer clothes and go on cruises. That is just me. As a matter of fact, that is what my mom is telling me off for right now. Because I am not empathetic as I like to save money. I know. CRAZY!!!

I hope one day the world will be so that everyone can accept everyone else. For their likes and dislikes. Hating holidays and enjoying school is very normal. It is not like it is a weird fettish of dressing up.

So why do people hate me because I hate holidays? Is it because I am a threat to society? Is it because I don't like fighting? Is it because I am who I am?

People hate me. For various reasons.

If you hate something and like something, it is okay. Even if it's a fettish ;).

I accept you the way you are. People like us need to come together and stay strong against all the people who are mean, disrespectful and haters.

My Crush (And Fears)

I thought, nobody read this blog anyway, so let me tell them a secret.

I have a crush. On a boy. His name is Mark, but I am going to save his details.

I don't know. I am not in love yet, but I am considering it. It looks like he likes me because he acts all nervous around me and tries to ipress me by showing his smartness, but not in a cocky way.

He is my kind of guy. He is kind, considerate, smart, tall... His friends are a bit upsetting. I am not really friendly with them, but not agressive.

I have no will to ask him out. I am not a flirty type of person, so if I start flirting he is definetly going to understand that I like him. But because I am not sure if he likes me or not for sure, it can be dangerous.

In addition, if I start flirting everyone will notice and I will be bullied even further. BTW I am bullied by half my year because I am a 'nerd'. Sidetracking, I am not upset by the bullying becuase all they are telling me is that I am smarter than them in a way that hurts most people, but makes me feel stronger.

So I am just going to post the updates on here.

For my safety and the safety of my crush, I decided to alter his name. This is just in case he finds this blog and reads my feelings.

Oh, and he is a very good guy. i just had my feelings crushed once before so this time I decided to take it easy and not fall for Mark too quickly without confirmation. FYI, I can still backtrack in my feelings as I made sure I can control them.

If you have any advice, leave it below. My comments are not censored. Thanks!!!

Easy 14 Day Diet for Teenagers and Young Adults

Hello Everyone!

As you know, one of my New Years Resolutions was to lose weight. I know this diet that I made up myself that really works. I tried it last year and lost 10kg in two weeks! It is great for the summer.

You don't have to do any sport for this, but these are some of the rules you have to follow:
- Drink at least 2L of water a day (keep hydrated as it will be easier for your body to clear of the toxins and lose weight)
- Get at least 8 hours of sleep (it will be easier to lose weight when you are full of energy)

These two rules can make a huge difference in your weight loss. Now, onto the diet!

The basics of this is that you eat the same thing everyday, which makes your body adjust and get ready for each meal. your stomach and digestive system then knows what you are going to eat with no delay, making it easier to digest.

You also won't get hungry,  as this diet lets you eat every two hours. This keeps your stomach going and never hungry.

Breakfast:
- 2 fried eggs (no butter or oil)
- 1 cup of coffee (milk allowed)

2nd Breakfast:
- 1 banana
- 250mL of water (preferibly cold)

Lunch:
- 1 can of tuna (no oil)
- 100mL of milk (preferibly warm)

2nd Lunch:
- 1 banana
- 250 mL of water (preferibly cold)

Dinner:
- 1 cup of rice (cooked)
- ! tsp of soy sauce (optional)
- 100mL of milk (preferibly warm)

2nd Dinner:
- 1 banana
- 250 mL of water (preferibly cold)


The thing about this diet, is that the liquids can be switched around. For example, you can have milk with the banana and water with rice. But know that the recommendation is to have it precisely to what it is in the specifications above.

I wish you luck and I will keep you posted about my progress!

New Year’s Resolutions

New Year's Resolutions are a great invention. Basically, all you have to do is make up a few New Year's Resolutions to stick to for the entire year. I decided to share mine with you guys because you are always so supportive and helpful and are almost like family.

I thought long and hard about my New Year's Resolutions this year. So here they are:

1. Drink at least 2L of water a day.
     I was always a little bit unhealthy ever since I left my old school, where teachers promoted drinking water. This also involved people going to the bathroom a lot more often. Back then I used to drink at least 5L of water a day.
     Ever since then, I wanted to become healthier again by drinking water. As our school despises people going to the toilet and sometimes we get detention for going to the toilet too many times, I don't get so many chances to do that. So I decided to stick to 2L because bottles of such size are easy to find and this amount won't have me running to the toilet every 30 minutes.



2. Lose 15kg of weight.
 
  I've never been skinny but never fat either. 15kg seems like a lot, but I promise that I am not in a healthy range. I just want to look more attractive for my summer trip to an exotic country and I have a crush on someone (but later on that ;) )




3. Always substitute for healthier options.

 
As I told you earlier, I am a bit more unhealthy than I was. So I decided to add this one on to remind myself of th ehealthy lifestyle - swapping popcorn to celery or chocolate to apples. This won't nessesarily help with weightloss, but with my health. I also reccomend this to you - as it makes you feel more clean, healthy, alert and feeling better overall.

4. Save up at least £200 for my visit to the exotic country.

    I think this is great to do because I will be staying there with my extended family for 5 weeks! And I don't want to rely on my extended family (who are not rich) to pay for my personal expenses. By the way, my parents are not going. So this is great goal, in my opinion.




5. Be kinder to all my bullies and haters.

    I think this is very important because Christ teaches us to love and forgive everyone. And I cannot be mean or even ignorant towards them because it is against my nature. They are only doing all they do because they are jealous of me and if I have a better personality, they will be ven more jealous.




So HAPPY NEW YEAR to all of you! I wish you all the best in the new year.

Hatred, Being a Crowd and Frenemies

Hatred is so intertwined in our society. Sometimes it feels like the whole world is against us.

I realised this when I remembered all the people that I studied with, and all of them were either jealous of me or hated me for absolutely no reason. Sometimes even middle-aged people don't like me because they feel the aura of intelligence.

I understood that I do not want to be left alone at the end of my path. I want to have friends all over the world that I can trust and come back to at difficult times. I only have 3 friends that I can call friends and they are all my bestest dearest friends.

I am not a loner and I can strike a conversation with many people. But sometimes they go behind my

Remember this quote whenever you feel the
hatred of somebody else torturing you.

back and say bad things about me like rumours. This causes people I don't know to hate me.

As you probably read in my last post, I was bullied all my life. This caused there to be so much hatred around me. When I don't hate anyone. I often feel like a misfit, a weirdo. This is because people stare at me with shocked eyes and call me weird.

One of those reasons is me liking and enjoying education. Why wouldn't anyone like learning new things in school of uni? It makes no sense. Particularly, the fact that my favourite subject of mathemactics is deeply confusing to people.

And I am not ashamed to know that I enjoy math. I am not Einstein but I enjoy the process and the outcome. It makes me feel powerful, knowin gthe solutions to so many problems, however small they  may be.

So under the constant pressure of the society to be dummer and much more stupid, I decided not to follow the crowd and much rather be a misfit than an outcast later on when i need the skills I lost by becomming a part of the crowd.

I just don't want to follow the crowd because those people who are successful in being a part of a crowd are not very interesting individuals - they are just like verybody else. In addition, me being a teenager puts a lot more pressure on not standing out.

Eisntein was different.
Imagine what the world would be like of Einstein and such great people
decided to follow the crowd.

Here is what I want to say to the world:
"I don't want to be a part of a crowd! Why would I? So that in a job interview I look just like everybody else? So that nobody can remember me because I am such a part of the crowd, that no one remembers me? Why? SO STOP TRYING TO MAKE ME THE SAME AS EVERYBODY ELSE, WORLD, JUST STOP!"

And today I was jealous of the girl that my ex-crush is dating. I Facebook-stalked her to find out who she is. Well, the thing is, she is nothing special. Just another cheerleader with many friends and a hot boyfriend.

But you might say:
"Eva, you are just another nerd with a loner life and no friends."
And my response to you is to say that I am a nerd, but I am sometimes reluctant to read and much prefer to go online and read gossip on celebs or watch funny YouTube videos. I have many friends that I hang out with, but we are not tight. I have three beautiful, smart, kind and caring best friends.

Of course, I am not model-beautiful or Einstein-smart. But I am me and I stand out. People bully me because of it, but I could care less because I am happy.

Why have frenemies instead of friends?

Isn't it funny how I want to have many friends but am a misfit? Well, when I grow up and become successful (because karma and my inner nerd), the bullies, haters and idiots I leave behind will be losers in life while I will enjoy the company of a lot of intelligent and caring people who will come to be my friends.

You are thinking that I sound too sure of myself. But I know, simply because this has happened to so many people and the ones that stayed strong like me have succeded and left behind many losers that thought that they are better than them.

The bullies, haters, backstabbing frenemies and idiots are there simply to build up the strong character of the individual who is destined to the greater. Even in the Bible, the story says that only 1/3 will rule while the rest will serve the ones who are ruling. So if you, bullies, want to rule, you better start upgrading your trashy personality.

If all this hatred is happening to you and you are feeling sad because of it, remember:
1. You have a loving, caring family and that is better than any sea of friends.
2. You have a handful of trustworthy besties that have got your back, instead of hundreds of fake, lying and backstabbing frenemies.
3. You are unique and so is every celebrity. You stand out, just like every successful person. There is no successful person on this Earth that wasn't hated and bullied for being so different.


So swap these words:
Weird  Awkward  Misfit  Annoying  Odd  Nerd  Failure
To these:
Uneque  Different  Individual  Exclusive  Divergent  Incomparable

Because nobody should force you to be different from you. You are you. I am me. Let's change the world!

How and Why to be Teacher’s Pet

You don't have to be a nerd to be a teacher's pet.

My name is Eva. And I am proud to say that I am a teacher's pet. Teachers like me a lot because of my personality and commmitment. These are the benefits of being a teacher's pet:

1. You can do no wrong.
    Teachers can make rules in the classroom and if you follow them all the time, like a teacher's pet would, you can break one once in a while and get away with it. Don't do it often though.

2. Your grades are better.
    If you are a teacher's pet, the teacher might give you half a mark on your test on your answer instead of no marks. This might not seem like much, bit you can move your grade from C to B or B to A easily this way. This is because they like you so much that they see something right in your answer. It also works if after the test you change your answer and they will pretend like they didn't notice.

3. Your report is perfect.
   Any flaws you have - they will not be mentioned in the report. The teacher is just going to praise you.

Now that you've realised how good it is to be teacher's pet, let me tell you how to become one:

1. Look nice.
   Make sure you look clean and fresh. Wear comfortable clothes - not baggy and not too stylish. You want to appear like you are wearing clothes that you would wear on a comfy day. Dress by the weather too. Practie hygene - no one likes yellow-teethed messy students/pupils. You are trying to impress them - by being yourself. But you can act as someone better and make it look natural.

2. Act nice.
   Seems obvious - be polite and nice, not only to the teacher, but to your classmates. Don't swear in
front of your teacher either - it is going to make them see you in a bad light.

3. Smile a lot.
   Don't smile fakely, just have a cute smile on
your face most of the time. While the teacher is teaching you, smile lightly to show that you are enjoying yourself in the class.

4. Participate in class.
   Participation is so important. Answer questions. My trick is to wait for a few people to answer the question wrong or partcially right and put your hand up. Then give the correct answer. This is so easy. If no one says stupid things in your class, give one of the stupid guys or girls the wrong information before class, it's evil but it works.

5. Give cards and presents.
    You might not see a benefit in giving Christmas cards or little presents - but it works. The teacher sees that you like them as a person and want to share something with them. Plus, if someone does a
service for you for free, doesn't it make you feel like they are nicer than they are?
   The presents don't have to big - you can buy a cheap charity card and bake a gingerbread cookie. Whatever is easy. It is the thought tha counts.
   If you know the teacher's birthday, it is even better! Give them a card, don't pick the age though - it is too creepy, and a little keyring with their name on or something. It makes them so happy.

6. Don't expect the results to come quickly.
   You can't do this in one week. It takes months of work, but if yu follow all these tips, then I guatantee you will succeed. Even if the teacher already has a teacher's pet. Take the spotlight! I believe in you!

Bullying

Bullying is a major concern of the modern society. So many people are obsessed with preventing it and creating content to help bullies, victims and everyone in between. This makes us think that bullying is bad and is stopped everyday. But what if I tell you that teachers and councellors don't care if you are bullied? That is what I am going to tell you about.

I was bullied for my entire life, for as long as I can remember. First - for my last name, then for being a lesbian(while being homophobic), then for the made up rumors about liking guys, being desperate and for being a nerd.

You would think that I should do something about it - my ongoing bullying experience is not helping me. But I told a lot of people - teachers, councellors, guidance teachers and pupil support. Basically, everyone who could solve the problem. None of them even tried.

When I ask my guidance teacher about why people tolerate bullying, he says that they are doing the right thing by tolerating it and not getting help. But why?

And my bullying is really affecting me. It is not like I am tolerating only rumors or light stuff. Let me tell you a story that is something like what happens to me at least weekly:

I am sitting in art class and sketching a drawing of a vase in front of me. A girl from a different class passes by and takes my pencilcase. I put my pencil down and go up to her.
"Excuse me, can I have my pencilcase back. Please?" I say to her in a sweet voice, smiling to not make her uncomfortable for the crime she committed.
"What? Who are you?" she replies in a rude voice, as if I am interrupting her life.
"I am Diana, from XYZ Art Class. You took my pale blue pencilcase a moment ago. Can I have it back?" I reply to her.
"Firstly, I don't know what you are talking about and I haven't seen your stupid pencilcase. I. Do. Not. Have. It. Get lost." She says, getting angry.
"I saw you take it. So did all of my friends. I don't want to have to go to the teacher. Please, there will be less trouble if you give it back now." I say, still staying calm.
"I don't have it. Please, go away and don't accuse me of what I haven't done. And go ahead and tell the teacher because anyway I don't have it." She replies and walks away.
I go to the guidance office, but as always my guidance teacher is not there. I tell another guidance teacher that is present there that a girl stole my pencilcase.
"Ignore her. Forgive. It is just another old pencilcase." the guidance teacher says, hearing my story.
"But how am I going to go to school without a pencilcase?" I ask, completely confused.
"Borrow from friends." He replies, as if it is obvious that if you lose something worth over £40 in value, you should let it go without trying.
I start tearing up because he is as rude as the bully and I lost something so expensive that I got only a month ago and my mom is going to tell me off. Now he takes action.
The girl does not confess that day. When the guidance teacher threatens her with a detention in DR3, she gives it back. Almost everything was broken in the pencilcase. I didn't want her to get into more trouble, so I looked over that fact.

Another thing that happens to me all the time, literally all the time, is people I don't know walking up to me in class and in hallways and saying 'You are soo weird.". Why? I don't know. But all I can reply is 'Okay.' and 'Thanks' or 'I know.'

The thing is, when people say, ignore bullies and they will stop, it doesn't really work. If I ignore them, they go even further. They think I haven't heard them so they shout it or say it in front of the teacher.

And teachers can solve this. So can guidance teachers. And pupil support. And councellors. But they don't care unless you are straight up crying. My guidance teacher encourages people who withstand bullying on a daily basis to not tell anyone and feel bad but not waste his time. What? Who does that?

All I am saying is, live life and sort the bullying stuff yourself. From my experience, bullies are people who are jealous and have nothing better to do. All you have to do is stand strong and feel sorry for them because they are not smart enough to do anything useful, so they try to prevent you from doing it.

And remember, you are smarter, prettier and better than them!

BY THIS MUCH!!!