I have a crush. On a boy. His name is Mark, but I am going to save his details.
I don't know. I am not in love yet, but I am considering it. It looks like he likes me because he acts all nervous around me and tries to ipress me by showing his smartness, but not in a cocky way.
He is my kind of guy. He is kind, considerate, smart, tall... His friends are a bit upsetting. I am not really friendly with them, but not agressive.
I have no will to ask him out. I am not a flirty type of person, so if I start flirting he is definetly going to understand that I like him. But because I am not sure if he likes me or not for sure, it can be dangerous.
In addition, if I start flirting everyone will notice and I will be bullied even further. BTW I am bullied by half my year because I am a 'nerd'. Sidetracking, I am not upset by the bullying becuase all they are telling me is that I am smarter than them in a way that hurts most people, but makes me feel stronger.
So I am just going to post the updates on here.
For my safety and the safety of my crush, I decided to alter his name. This is just in case he finds this blog and reads my feelings.
Oh, and he is a very good guy. i just had my feelings crushed once before so this time I decided to take it easy and not fall for Mark too quickly without confirmation. FYI, I can still backtrack in my feelings as I made sure I can control them.
If you have any advice, leave it below. My comments are not censored. Thanks!!!
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