Hatred, Being a Crowd and Frenemies

Hatred is so intertwined in our society. Sometimes it feels like the whole world is against us.

I realised this when I remembered all the people that I studied with, and all of them were either jealous of me or hated me for absolutely no reason. Sometimes even middle-aged people don't like me because they feel the aura of intelligence.

I understood that I do not want to be left alone at the end of my path. I want to have friends all over the world that I can trust and come back to at difficult times. I only have 3 friends that I can call friends and they are all my bestest dearest friends.

I am not a loner and I can strike a conversation with many people. But sometimes they go behind my

Remember this quote whenever you feel the
hatred of somebody else torturing you.

back and say bad things about me like rumours. This causes people I don't know to hate me.

As you probably read in my last post, I was bullied all my life. This caused there to be so much hatred around me. When I don't hate anyone. I often feel like a misfit, a weirdo. This is because people stare at me with shocked eyes and call me weird.

One of those reasons is me liking and enjoying education. Why wouldn't anyone like learning new things in school of uni? It makes no sense. Particularly, the fact that my favourite subject of mathemactics is deeply confusing to people.

And I am not ashamed to know that I enjoy math. I am not Einstein but I enjoy the process and the outcome. It makes me feel powerful, knowin gthe solutions to so many problems, however small they  may be.

So under the constant pressure of the society to be dummer and much more stupid, I decided not to follow the crowd and much rather be a misfit than an outcast later on when i need the skills I lost by becomming a part of the crowd.

I just don't want to follow the crowd because those people who are successful in being a part of a crowd are not very interesting individuals - they are just like verybody else. In addition, me being a teenager puts a lot more pressure on not standing out.

Eisntein was different.
Imagine what the world would be like of Einstein and such great people
decided to follow the crowd.

Here is what I want to say to the world:
"I don't want to be a part of a crowd! Why would I? So that in a job interview I look just like everybody else? So that nobody can remember me because I am such a part of the crowd, that no one remembers me? Why? SO STOP TRYING TO MAKE ME THE SAME AS EVERYBODY ELSE, WORLD, JUST STOP!"

And today I was jealous of the girl that my ex-crush is dating. I Facebook-stalked her to find out who she is. Well, the thing is, she is nothing special. Just another cheerleader with many friends and a hot boyfriend.

But you might say:
"Eva, you are just another nerd with a loner life and no friends."
And my response to you is to say that I am a nerd, but I am sometimes reluctant to read and much prefer to go online and read gossip on celebs or watch funny YouTube videos. I have many friends that I hang out with, but we are not tight. I have three beautiful, smart, kind and caring best friends.

Of course, I am not model-beautiful or Einstein-smart. But I am me and I stand out. People bully me because of it, but I could care less because I am happy.

Why have frenemies instead of friends?

Isn't it funny how I want to have many friends but am a misfit? Well, when I grow up and become successful (because karma and my inner nerd), the bullies, haters and idiots I leave behind will be losers in life while I will enjoy the company of a lot of intelligent and caring people who will come to be my friends.

You are thinking that I sound too sure of myself. But I know, simply because this has happened to so many people and the ones that stayed strong like me have succeded and left behind many losers that thought that they are better than them.

The bullies, haters, backstabbing frenemies and idiots are there simply to build up the strong character of the individual who is destined to the greater. Even in the Bible, the story says that only 1/3 will rule while the rest will serve the ones who are ruling. So if you, bullies, want to rule, you better start upgrading your trashy personality.

If all this hatred is happening to you and you are feeling sad because of it, remember:
1. You have a loving, caring family and that is better than any sea of friends.
2. You have a handful of trustworthy besties that have got your back, instead of hundreds of fake, lying and backstabbing frenemies.
3. You are unique and so is every celebrity. You stand out, just like every successful person. There is no successful person on this Earth that wasn't hated and bullied for being so different.


So swap these words:
Weird  Awkward  Misfit  Annoying  Odd  Nerd  Failure
To these:
Uneque  Different  Individual  Exclusive  Divergent  Incomparable

Because nobody should force you to be different from you. You are you. I am me. Let's change the world!